I will be on HIATUS for the rest of this FALL Semester and be on again around December and then hiatus during the Spring Semester. I hopefully will graduate next semester... I realized all the art projects I have done while doing intensive group projects and papers cannot be managed. I schedule this and that... something falls through and/or adjust my time to be flexible with different groups. My most intensive group project is the 100K Tech Competition.. not only is it money and a start up of a technology business, but I'm being graded as a TEAM! I like what I am doing in the class; however, the project we chose became more complicated than it is. We did a prejudging and our group ranked last. So it was a total bummer. We learn from it and will improve what to make it better to see if we can win or least a passing grade.

Not only my stress levels was by projects from school and working weekends (where there is always sales and customer complaints, being swamped, and staying another 30 minutes to clean the store). I am also financially stressed. I have yet to make my dispute with my bank and a complaint letter to PayPal. Which I will be doing now while I wait for my next class. As much I want to talk about what happened, just makes me frustrated even thinking about it. PayPal is already losing my loyalty, I am seeking a new company to do my $$ transfers between buyers and sellers. So I wont be buying anything Oni-Con.

Being under this tremendous amount of stress and mixed emotions, I became depressed broke down and cried 2 days in a row. Then I hyperventilated for the first time because I freaked out on top of being stressed. I was feeling a point I couldn't go on anymore. I wanted to stop living and have no more pains and problems. Nonetheless, I'm not gone, I'm still here and alive... I always have to make the best of things but it is hard to see things optimistically when you are limited to what you can do.

Please bear my absence from DA and other networking sites. I really need to focus on the home stretch for my Bachelor's degree in Business MGT: Small Business & Entrepreneurship with a Minor in Communication. Thank you everyone for you love and support. I will see you all in December. Take Care.

Much Love,

Monica



p.s. past winners will still get their prizes, will contact you once made and ready to be sent. Thank you for your patience. <3